Aloha from Hell!

Wish you were here…

thoughts

  • Me and mom had a BAD fight today. Words were said. Bad ones. So I had a shitty day. Now I’m hunkered down in my chair, bored as hell. I don’t know what to do, really.  I’m back to taking long naps in the afternoons and sometimes later at night.…

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  • I’m trying out Spotify for the first time today, I used it in the car. I like it so far. There’s a ton of really diverse playlists that others have made. I think I used it on my tv once before on my ps4. The only thing I don’t like…

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  • I’m so bad at communicating with other humans and everyone seems to either be mad at me about something and/or thinks I’m a dumbass. Maybe I should quit. Just…quit. I’m tired of it and emotionally exhausted. I never liked most people anyways, so why do I try? Maybe it’s just…

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  • I finally felt like trying on my clothes from KILLSTAR and they’re lovely! The pants sort of remind me of bondage pants and they’re made of an odd stretchy polyester sort of material which isn’t my favourite, but it doesn’t bother me much. Thankfully they are high waisted enough. The…

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  • I napped for four fucking hours tonight, from around 8pm to 12:30am. I think I need a bigger dose of Vivance. I made an image to use in the layout of Endymion.nu and I just don’t know how to implement it. I really suck at this. I’m not as creative…

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  • I was stressed today, so mom took me to the BBQ place and we ate river chips 😀 That usually makes me feel better. Had to take an extra Ativan anyways! I was hot and shaky and my pulse was racing. Don’t know what that was about. I got my…

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  • Being simultaneously bored and nervous sucks. I kind of ran out of things to watch. It’s 3am and I’m already itching to get out of here. I hate feeling like this, I want to enjoy being in the place I call home, but I can’t. I don’t know if it’s…

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  • I apparently broke a big rule at TFL. They sent me an email and I fixed the problem quickly. The rule is not to use a JavaScript auto update thing, which I wasn’t. I had used a php script that allowed me to change the update dates on all my…

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  • One of my old redirected fanlisting domains went down and I need to hurry up and get the new one for the animanga stuff before I start getting on troubles lists, especially on tafl. Why do I stress over this, it’s just fanlistings. I don’t want to lose any, I…

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  • Since I can’t seem to install NinjaLinks on gothic.nu, I’m testing a WP plugin on this blog before I go ahead and install WP there. It’s…confusing. I wish NinjaLinks would just fucking work! It’s supposed to be an updated version 😑 I hate php scripts, they always give me grief.…

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