mental health
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Creepypastas & other things
Here is one of the most visceral, intense, and honestly downright gross creepypastas I’ve seen on YouTube. Narrated by MrCreepyPasta, who is one of my two favourite narrators. This fucking story stuck in my mind for days, and I still randomly think about it. I loved it, but also kinda…
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I’m an asshole
I’m apparently out to destroy my own finances again. I have a deep, burning desire to have something to look forward to. Things feel dire. I’m isolated again. And so, I spend money I don’t have. I don’t know why I react this way. But yeah, I don’t have anyone…
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Christmas and other things
First, I must gloat. My credit score went up to 770. 👍 No one else cares, but I love that for me 😬 I had Christmas with mom and dad on Christmas Eve, as has been tradition since I was a kid, because dad always had to work Christmas Day.…
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Dad came home Sunday and acted a lot better than I anticipated! I am super happy for that. I can actually kind of hold a conversation with him but I have to shout to get his attention. It’s been like that for a couple of years now, but I was…
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I feel like I’m taking crazy pills…
Important Note: this is very embarrassing for me, but I’m not going to delete this entry because it’s proof of the cognitive issues I’ve been complaining about for years. I want to show my psychiatrist because I don’t think she understands the extent of it and the incredible distress that…
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New post, because it isn’t appropriate to complain about this stuff in heavy posts. Lauren resigned from ACA yesterday evening. She said she wants to focus on college more. I wish her the best, but I am depressed. I’m already depressed, but it’s just another thing to be depressed about.…
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When will something good happen.
I had one highlight yesterday, Christie took me out to eat again. We went to Oishii because I felt like Japanese, which is something I haven’t had since dad picked Kobe Japanese Steakhouse for his birthday earlier this year. For once, the grill dude got my steak mostly right, a…
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Last few days have been rough. Might add to this later. It’s nap time 😬 Edit Monday: Dad went to the ER Friday and it sucked for all three of us. I’m not even going to get into it. Sunday, I got to see dad at the house. Mom warned…
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Fuuuuck I measured my waist yesterday to be sure the pants and skirt I wanted from VampireFreaks would fit and NONE of them would. The skirt that I could have gotten because it’s polyester stretchy material also came in 4X-5X but that was sold out! Then I looked at the…
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I started feeling crappy last night.