Aloha from Hell!

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  • Wow, both my parents are trying to convince me not to have surgery. Mom is just depressing. I didn’t enjoy being around her today. ☹️ They are actually making me scared. Oh well. I’m doing it. Not gonna be this way anymore. I got a number of things done with…

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  • I’m set to have surgery September 5th. I have to see the psychiatrist and do the liquid diet again, no big deal. I’ll not chicken out this time. I’m just grateful they gave me a second chance! Mom isn’t too happy about it though. Of course 😆 Apparently I’m 19lb…

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  • Feeling a little better today. The weight loss center got back to me and said they’d pass the info along to Dr Hata, and it’s his decision if he will reschedule my surgery. I at least have a chance, I’m just worried about the insurance crap. Anyone else ever injure…

  • Good lord.

    Ughhhhh I just wrote a long email to mom about how I made a mistake canceling my surgery, and I know she’s going to think I’m a crazy flip flopping idiot but yeah. I want to reschedule it. I apologized like 50 times. I know I put stress on her…

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  • Welp. I had a crisis at 5am and called mom. I cancelled the surgery. I did not go through with it. I guess I realized there are other options to lose weight and I don’t have to do something so drastic that will permanently change my body and life forever.…

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  • Less than a day before surgery. I had to clean my whole body with these wipes provided by the hospital, and it made me itch. I have to do it again tomorrow. Blah. I had been having second thoughts. I wondered if I could really give up eating certain foods,…

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  • Went to hobby lobby and got a little pack of Derwent colored pencils. I believe Derwents are oil based instead of wax, I could be wrong though. I’m going to find out for sure, test them out, and consider investing in a large set of Derwent pencils after my Prismacolors…

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  • Oh my lort…today was loooong. So much shit to do, but I got it done. My ass was very sore from all the sitting I did. I honestly thought it would never end lol. I just got home 30 minutes ago. 7:45am to 5pm. Phew! I think the classes were…

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  • Ugghhh tomorrow is pre-op….I have to get up at the crack of dawn and be there before 7:45am. I’ll be there allll day, a lot of it is sitting in a class for hours. I’m so scared I won’t be able to sleep tonight. I’m gonna try in about an…

  • God I am such an idiot. I accidentally used my credit card to buy $100 in groceries. I have an EBT card for that! In my defense, mom dragged me into the store when I was absolutely exhausted. Easy to make a dumb mistake when you’re that tired. /sigh Liquid…